bakit parang biglang hindi na kita kilala? saan bang bato ako natapilok? saan bang lubak ako nadapa? bakit biglang naiwan na pala ako?
mahal kita.
hindi ko alam kung nagkamali ba ako sa desisyon kong un.. o ano na nga ba.. mali lang siguro na umasa ako.. oo nga pala. hindi ko dapat ginawa yun. ano mo ba ako? ano ba kita? tama. wala.
mahal kita.
nagtatanong ako pero hindi nagsisisi na ikaw ang pinili kong mahalin. tanga na ako kung tanga. pero sabi nga ng kanta, "kung magagawa ko lang, puso ko ay maturuan.. na umibig sa iba di ko pipigilan". pero hindi. sinubukan kong magmahal ng iba pero hindi ko kaya.
mahal kita.
tinanggap kita nang buo. lahat ng tama, lahat ng mali. pero hindi ko yun dapat isumbat sa 'yo. kasi dapat noon pa lang naintindihan ko na.. na hindi dahil tinanggap ko kung ano ka e ganun na rin ang gagawin mo sa akin.
mahal kita.
pero malaking pagkakamali ang umasa ako. kasi wala naman talagang "tayo". may "ikaw at ako" pero di kailanman nagkaroon ng "tayo".
i was watching "My Bestfriend's Wedding" (for the nth time) kanina.. who would've thought na doon ko pala makikita ang super tagal ko nang hinahanap na song na andun na lahat. as in the song says it all. pero bahala na lang muna kayo manghula kung alin dun sa movie.. kasi pag i-post ko pa dito.. wala na. mabubuko na ako. sa akin na lang muna un. popost na lang ako ng ibang kanta.. sa mga magaling humula diyan, cge lang. go.
ONE LAST CRY (brian mcknight)
My shattered dreams and broken heart Are mending on the shelf I saw you holding hands Standing close to someone else Now I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone I gave my best to you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry One last cry Before I leave it all behind I gotta put you out of my mind this time Stop living a lie I guess I'm down to my last cry I was here You were there Guess we never could agree While the sun shines on you I need some love to rain on me Still I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone Gotta get over you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry One last cry Before I leave it all behind I gotta put you out of my mind This time Stop living a lie I know I've gotta be strong Cuz round me life goes on and on and on And on I'm gonna dry my eyes Right after I have my One Last Cry
ang hirap di ba?! cge good luck na lang.. :!:
grabe talaga. last night, for the third consecutive night na, i cried myself to sleep.. ang hirap talaga. lalo na kapag wala kang mapagsabihan. ang hirap nung bawat araw na lang e hahanap ka ng paraan para di mo mapakita yun sa ibang tao.. pero sometimes, lahat yun aapaw at aapaw na rin.. tas hindi ka na lang makapagpigil. gustuhin mo mang itago na lang lahat, hindi mo na magawa. (pasensya na lang sa mga nakakaramdam.. pati na rin siguro dun sa mga hindi makaramdam.) ang tao naman hindi parang pinapakuluang kaldero e.. na kapag sobrang kumukulo na ang laman at umaapaw na, patayin mo lang agad ang kalan, titigil na sa pag-apaw. ang tao, nagtatagal pa. nagpapakahirap pa muna. bago matapos ang lahat. bago maubos lahat ng iaapaw niya..
its been a long day for me.. pero ha! i've succeeded in taking my mind off you-know-who for quite a while..we've started working on our batch project today.. and i'm so proud of those who attended as we were able to finish a lot today.. we already changed the screens and painted the grills too.. we've already cut and painted the new frames for the windows as well.. tomorrow will be another busy day for all of us.. i hope we'll be able to finish all the work tomorrow.. if we do, maybe we can move the our scheduled gen cleaning on wednesday then have a good rest day on thursday, followed by the batch planning scheduled on friday. PLUS!!! ENCORE!!! ORG PIPS A!!!! SA FRIDAY :D
i had no time to turn my drama mode on today. probably not today. :D i'm really happy today e. there are a lot of reasons.. :D but the one major reason probably would be that long talk i had with one of my close friends.. he called me kanina e. ewan ko ba.. super tagal na rin naming di nakakapuag-usap.. basta. i really missed him. as in. yun.. :D
another thing.. hmm.. probably, would be the fact that i received a little spark of inspiration kanina. ewan ko. i just kept on thinking about someone :wink: during my break kanina tapos yun. hay. sometimes, lalo na pag super down ka na, kahit na the rest of the world would keep on turning, maisip mo lang ang someone special, at yung mga pinagdaanan nyo.. hay.. you'll be on the right track na ulet.. :D
ok.. song for the day.. umm ok.. wala pala. wala akong mahugot. :!:
second entry for the day.. or should i say first for the day.. its already half past 1 and i'm still here.. what's the matter with me?!
CAN'T LET GO (mariah carey) There you are Holding her hand I am lost Dying to understand Didn't I Cherish you right Don't you know You were my life Even though I try I can't let go Something in your eyes Captured my soul And every night I see you in my dreams You're all I know I can't let go Just cast aside You don't even know I'm alive You just walk on by Don't care to see me cry And here I am Still holding on I can't accept My world is gone Do you even realize The sorrow I have inside Everyday of my life Do you know the way it feels When all you have just dies I try and try To deny that I need you But still you remain on my mind No I just can't get you out of my mind I never can say goodbye 'Cause every night I see you in my dreams You're all I know I can't let you go Even though I try I can't let go of something that I need so badly You're all I know I can't let go
kill me right now, why don't you?! ang badtrip.. saka bakit ganun si mariah? ang mga kanta niya ay.. ewan.. ang galing talaga.. quarter before 2 in the morning na pero andito pa rin ako.. kachat ko pa si ate anna (na nagsesenti rin gaya ko.. :D) at si joyee (na alas-dos na ng madaling araw e naghahanap pa ng 19 pieces na cattleya fillers)
oh well.. i have to postpone my pondering for tonight.. i have to rest na.. i still have to go to school tomorrow (actually, later)at around 7 to prepare for the batch project. i hope to.. umm wag na nga.. bahala na kung ano ang makita o makausap o kung anuman bukas.. cguro ok na rin kung hindi.
BREAKDOWN (mariah carey) You called yesterday to basically say That you care for me but that you're just not in love Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly And led you to believe I was O.K. To just walk away from the one thing That's unyielding and sacred to me Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue Of the pain that rejection is putting you through Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive" Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way" Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away Break break down Gotta get control Roll roll roll along Steady breakin' me on down Roll roll roll along Break break down Gotta get control Roll roll roll along Steady breakin' me on down Roll along It'll break you down Only if you let it Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind Tryin' to break me down But I won't let it Forget it I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down Kickin' me around Stressin' me out I think I better go and get out and let me Release some stress Don't ever wanna feel no pain Hoping for the sun But it looks like rain Oh, i just wanna maintain Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on But nevertheless Krayzie won't fall It's over It's endin' here
ang hirap mag-isip... super nasasakal ka na lang.. nasusuka ka na sa kakapilit na mali nga ang iniisip mo. oh well..
the song says it all. ewan ko ba.. ang hirap diba? i know some of you guys already know what this is all about. hay.
hindi ko araw ngayon.. nagkakasabay-sabay lahat ng kapalpakan. bukod pa sa drama mode ko ngayon, several other things happened pa. like for instance.. in the middle of a really good conversation, nabunot na pala ung phone connection ko. ayun.. nawala ang conversation. (sorry ate anna!) ang dami pang iba-ibang issues na lumabas ngayon.. and to top it all.. ang realization na probably would haunt for the rest of the break.. at malamang, hanggang sa second sem pa..
kaya ayan. ang laki ng epekto sa akin ng kanta na yan. i'm trying to look for a line or two that would really express what i'm feeling right now. but alas! i can't. the whole song would embody all emotions that i've been keeping inside for the longest time. grabe. ito na ata ang all time low ko this school year. i'm already hanging by a string.. i'll probably hit rock bottom this week. ughh.. heaven forbid..
"...underneath the guise of smile gradually i'm dying inside... i don't want to reveal, the fact that i'm suffering..."
my search is not yet over. my brain is already dry after the numerous, and may i add, unsuccessful attempts of finding an inspiring song that would, hopefully, air out all of my suppressed emotions. some of you my find this a rather shallow reason to be on the down side.. well, i can't stop you guys from thinking of it like that.. but it's like this.. take this as my way of expressing every single one of my struggles right now. this bites. big time.
so anyway.. i spent my whole morning today going through my inbox and re-reading old emails that i've kept for the longest time. i also found the time to read some articles my friends made on the internet (yep.. now that its sembreak, i have all the time to do these kinds of stuff over and over and over and.. )this may seem weird pero i found it hard to control my emotions. alam nyo yun?! binabasa ko yung isang article ng friend ko e shef. muntik na akong maiyak e. e tipong wala lang yun. letter to no one in particular lang. ganun na ba talaga ako kaproblemado these days? pero naisip ko.. baka naman iba na pala ang feelings ko dun sa tao na yun. ewan ko ba. its really, really confusing. sana hindi diba? sana lang talaga.
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kahapon nagpunta ako ng up. may council meeting kami ng, supposedly 7 kaso hindi rin kami nakastart agad. aoo picked me up tapos hinatid namin yung bro nya sa ateneo tapos we went straight sa tambs. pagdating dun, si rene lang ang nandoon so hintay pa ko ng council members. nagstart kme ng meeting ng mga 730 na ang andun lang ay si camille at dan. tapos after nun, nagkaron ng GA ung org.. for the activities next sem esp the caduceus cup sa 10. so un. after council meeting ulet, this time with ate bevs and kuya dino. after that, derecho kami sa celebrity sports. nakaschedule kasi kahapon ang friendship basketball game, team pmhs vs team abm. nakakatawa.. kasi 9 or 10 ata ang players na nakaline-up sa amin plus ang dami pang cheerers.. tas biglang 5 lang ang pumunta dun sa isang org. wala lang. hehe.. after more than 50 maalinsangan minutes.. natapos na ang game, we won, 48-45 though in fairness sa kabilang org, ang galing din nila. so ayun.. after the game, i had to go home na rin agad. pag-uwi ko, bagsak ako sa kama dahil sa pagod.. after about 3 hrs of sleep, bumangon na ako at nagturo sa sister dear ko. after that, usap kami ni ate anna sa phone. as in usap talaga 'to. ang dami kasing issues na dapat i-tackle. kailangan i-relieve ang stress. azz en.. ORG PIPS, SAMA KAYO!!! ENCORE TAYO SA FRIDAY!!! hehehe..
mga 11 na ata ng gabi un e. napagsabihan ako nung friend ko na matulog na.. hehehe.. sabi ko oo kaso.. no. hindi ko rin nasunod (sorry!) e ewan. mga 1 na ako nakapaglogout. tapos mga 230 na rin ako nakatulog.
CAN'T SAY I LOVE YOU (nina) Hey baby, we just met I have him, you have her If we fall for each other, would it be unfair Loving one another this way See I love him so much, and you love her too But baby when I met you I felt a love so true Can’t say that I love you but I do Can’t say that I miss you though it’s true Sometimes I feel I wanna kiss you And hold you in my arms so tight But all I can do is stop myself from loving you If only I, I met you before No one else was knocking on my door I'll let you into my heart and maybe that’s a start Of a promise that we’ll never be apart But if you and me are not meant to be Let’s just set each other free, let it be If you and me, together means forever Then let’s take this chance and build this romance But if loving each other could only mean never Let fate bring us back to another Who promised us forever..
its rather depressing to think of someone.. someone that can never be yours. ever. super time consuming nitong trabaho na 'to and yet.. you can't help but drown yourself in thoughts. shems naman o. tapos na yun e. hindi na dapat ibalik pa.. plus.. iba na ang situation ngayon.. falling could only make things more complicated.. this is the kind of thing na iniiwasan ko.. ang ibalik ang dati.. pero bakit ganun? ang daming hadlang..
oh well. hayaan na nga muna. sembreak na e. kailangang-kailangan ko na 'tong break na ito. destiny is giving me around half a month to think things through.. dapat sa pasukan ok na ako ulet. dapat ok na ang lahat. tama si boss.. love is a great oxymoron.. at sino nga ba ang moron?! hay..
yep.. its official. the sem is finally over for me.. not unless.. o no.. ayaoko munang isipin un. its bad enough na i get to start the sembreak here in this.. umm.. place.. mukhang at least 3 days na naman ako dito and i have a GA and may game pa on friday.. sana makalabas na ako by then.
hayun.. today's the 13th! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RONA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIN RENE (ay sir pala :P)!
my last exam was yesterday.. finals ng bio 11.. tapos we (aislinn, ruth, ako, berna and rene) went to sm after..kumain muna kami saka nanood ng sine.. wimbledon.. ok lng xa pero not that satisfying.. ayun.. ginabi na kami lahat umuwi.. berna and ruth left early.. hindi ko alam ung saktong reason. pero i think dahil na rin pumunta ng bicol early this morning cna berna.. ayun.. after the movie, naghiwa-hiwalay na rin kaming tatlo dahil gabi na nga.. rene had to go home to angeles pa tapos si ice, she needed to go to jb music at dept store pa to check out some things. ako naman, i had to rush to to the open parking area pa dahil naghihintay na dun yung dad ko. really exhausting day.
i got home just in time for krystala..oo na.. jologs o kung anuman..e andun si ryan a. e! pero sa totoo lang.. olats tlaga xa.. nakakaasar.. 2 straight nights ko na xang pinagtitiisan and shef. to my dismay.. HINDI PA RIN LUMALABAS SI RYAN!!! sa credits lang. homen.
humph.. bored na ako dito.. sana makalabas na ako by friday!!! or better yet bukas man lang!!!!! argh.
(why do i get the feeling na wala akong ibang gagawin buong araw kundi magblog? buti na lang talaga pwede ang internet sa phone dito.. haaayyy...)
hmm.. eto na naman ako. lingoo na naman ata ang binilang ko para mag-update. oh man, the last few weeks probably are the most toxic of all.. its a good thing na we had this trip to fort manalastas over the weekend (salamat boss!:P) pero getting out of town made me think a lot about.. umm.. things.. and.. uhmm.. people.. i mean, aside from the academics, parang ang dami kong gustong gawin pa.. ngyng break.. (though i must admit, super excited na akong magstart sa proj.) tapos ayun ung people.. i'm currently preoccupied with ano.. basta.. busy ako sa nagmamasid mode ngayon.. di ba boss? ay sorry ikaw lang pala ang may karapatan dun no!? :p o basta. observing.. tapos, reminiscing, tapos pondering.. tapos.. eto ang dilemma. im starting bring back blasts from the past. ang dami talagang bagay, tao, and most especially emotions, na nonstop ang pagrush back in.. o lord.. ang hirap. im so confused!!!! bakit ngayon pa?! di ba no ate ana?! WRONG ANSWER! :p :D
it was already late when we left the pmhs tambs today.sobrang napasarap ang kwentuhan namin nina orlyn, rene, ate ana, kuya pao, din2 and aislinn. lord. i've never been so 'high' in my life. hahahahah.. pero ewan ko.. as of the moment.. di pa ko pa naman pinagsisisihan ang mga nangyari na. sana hindi ko na pagsisihan.. sa mga taong involved a!!! guys! super sorry talaga.. hahaha.... wengwang ako ng sobra! pero a?! secret talaga azz en. super thanks sa pagtolerate sa akin at sa kawengwangan ko! sa mga na-bother at napaisip talaga.. sorry ng sobra.. yaan nyo na un! hehehe.. malalaman nyo rin naman un in due time e.. hehehe.. sa buddy ko.. aww.. super thanks talaga!! heheheheh.. di pa naman ako ganun kasabog para malaglag e.. heheheh.. pero thanks for being there.. as in. sana next time na mngyre un.. anjan ka pa rin.. pero lord.. sana hindi muna ulet un mngyre in the near future.. heheheh.. hayun na muna.. aral!!!!!b
ang tagal na naman bago ako nakagawa ng entry.. o lord.. this is going to be a very toxic month for me. september kicked off with 2 long exams.. bio 11 lec and bio 180. next week.. i still have 3 exams: 2 for bio lab and another for hum 1.. plus the work for pre med week. i just hope everything will turn out right..
shef.. i hope cj reads this. cj!!! tetext ko na siya ulet in a while.. loka ka kapag natuluyan ako dun a. hehehe..
hay.. wala akong masyadong ginawa ngayon.. BS ORG ang moda. 7-830 am lang ang class ko for the whole day pero 630 pa din ako nakaalis ng school.. heheh.. nagmeet din ang pubcom kanina. shef.. eto na. pre-med week na e. hehehe.. stresssssssssss... azz en. pero ok lng. at least by that time mejo tapos na ang mga exam.
ayoko magdrama ngyn.. too much drama for me today. gagawa muna ako ng model ng layout.. nectime na lng ulet ako susulat ng maayos.. peace out!
hehehe.. kakatapos lang namin mag-usap ni joy..hehehe.. konti na lang talaga.. bibigay na ako. malapit ko nang maamin kung sino man ang bago sa akin. hahaha...
pero ayaw ko pa talaga umamin sa sarili ko at sa iba. ayaw ko munang aminin sa iba.. kasi baka mamaya, magtuluy-tuloy na. ayaw ko ring aminin sa sarili ko.. kasi baka mamaya, madapa ako. oo, pwedeng bumangon ulet pero kapag masugatan ka na, gumaling man ang sugat, ang peklat, andun na lang siya. mahirap nang maalis. mahirap nang mabura.
a basta. mabait siya. malambing. maalalahanin. minsan, unpredictable, pero most of the time, masayang kasama. masarap kausap at alam mo at makikita mong may pangarap sa buhay. maloko pero seryoso. hay lord. thanks.
i've been really trying to sacrifice every opportunity, i've been beating my brains out just so i can minimize every chance i have.. but alas.. to no avail. this is really killing me inside and out. inside.. i have to supress all urges. and on the outside.. the ever so pretentious me. i have to pretend every minute, every second.. i can't possibly tell anyone about this. i don't want to fall, hard. really, really hard. i've been there, i've done that and man, it sucked. big time.
oh well.. life must go on..
shef. 2 strikes in a row. i don't want to say that things couldn't possibly get any worse than this. becauseb it could. believe me.
shef. bakit ganun?! i was just reading a former churva's blog e.. tapos biglang tumugtog ito:
i hear you taking the town again having a good time with all your good time friends i don't think that you think of me you're on your own now and i'm alone and free
i know that i should get on with my life but a life lived without you could never be right
as long as the stars shine down from the heavens as long as the rivers run to the sea i'll never get over you getting over me
i try to smile so the hurt won't show tell everybody that i was glad to see you go but the tears just won't go away loneliness found me looks like its here to stay
i know that i oughta find someone new but all i find is myself always thinking of you
oh no matter what i do each night's a lifetime to live through i can't go on like this i need your touch you're the only one i'll ever love
oo.. i'll never get over you getting over churva song.. badtrip.. ano namang masama sa pagbasa ng blog. hellewr?! pangitain ba ito? pero no. hindi ko na talaga un gusto. dati lang! hehehehe.. bitterness.. hindi pero seriously, isa lang talaga ang namimiss ko ngayon.. si umm.. siya.
pero i liked the rain. i liked it a lot. ewan ko. mas masarap na ngayon ang feeling ko tuwing umuulan.. unlike before na i feel kind of depressed kapag umuulan. anyhow, ang pagpasok ko kanina sa school.. wala ring nangyari. 'kala ko matutuwa ako pag makita ko si umm.. i guess i'll never know.. dahil hindi ko xa nakita today. weird na 'to. dahil nga gusto ko munang 'mejo' iwasan xa.. and yet.. heto. i feel so proud nga na i was able to fight the urge na itext sya ngayon.. pero.. hay, ang dami pa ring pero. lahat ng ito ay sobrang nakakalito na.
i slept this afternoon.. pambawi for last night. i dreamt of him. i find it uncanny na habang hindi ko xa SUPPOSEDLY iniisip e lalo ko na xang napapanaginipan.
i can't help it. call me paranoid pero i just have the gut feeling na galit siya sa akin. hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. naalala ko tuloy yung sabi ko sa isa kong friend.. pag magalit ang ibang ummm.. un.. sa akin, matatakot ako. pero kapag siya ang magalit sa akin, feeling ko, hindi ako matatakot. SOBRANG DEPRESSION ang mafi-feel ko. of all the people doon.. please sana hindi siya.
tomorrow is another day. i really wish na i would get the chance to see him. kahit sandali lang.. sasaya na siguro ako doon.
weird things happened today.. to start off, the pink strappy heels. hahaha.. hindi ko na alam kung ano ang pumasok sa kukote ko at un ang napagtripan kong suutin. nakalimutan ko pang mamumundok pa pla ako sa 4th floor ng CNB para sa 2nd period ko today. e lurd, heels un e. owell. all's well that ends well (tama ba un?) or should i say all swells, especially my feet. hehehehe..anyway.. ayun.. hmm.. generally i'd say na its less than stellar type of day ang araw ko ngyn especially with.. umm.. i'd rather not say it. basta. i missed a lot of him today. pero well, ako rin naman.. i really planned on not actually making contact whatsoever with him e. so aun.. i just wish na mejo maging ok na ulet ang lahat for the rest of the week.. haay.. yung pagkamiss ko sa kanya e lalong tumitindi every minute. lurd.. pano na 'to? howell.. ayun pa.. another weird encounter din ako kay umm.. un.. ngayon.. weird din xa these past few days but as joy puts it, sa lahat naman.. so aun.. tas si umm.. ano rin.. weird na xa.. ang hirap niyang masakyan.. sana lang malaman ko ang mga dahilan niya kasi kinakabahan na talaga ako sa kanya e. we're not really communicating din.. pano na?! owell.. another day bukas. i just wish na ang naffeel kong pagkamiss kay umm.. ano e mejo mabawasan na.. heaven help me..
i've been really busy last week dahil na rin sa finals.. i've been busy rewriting, reviewing and praying really, really, REALLY hard.. fortunately, everything went well for me.. :D math 54 here i come. :shock:
ayan.. marami-rami akong kwento.. i'll start dun sa huli kong naiwan.. ung pahiyas.. hehehe..
sisimulan ko nlng sa trip namin papunta.. our usual almost 7-hr long trip was cut to 3 1/2 hours.. living in antipolo was the reason for that. may mas maikli palang daan dito. papunta ng rizal, then to laguna then quezon. i really enjoy road trips, probably one reason kung bakit di ako nakatulog sa biyahe. as usual, ako na naman ang [i]in control[/i] sa music. heheh..
so un.. pagdating namin dun, i think it was around 8 in the evening.. (naaalala ko kasi inabutan ko pa ung scqk eliminaitions e..) anyway, un nga. pagdating namin dun lahat ng nakatira dun sa street e sobreang nagpprepare na for the festival the next day. all out tlga ang mga tao dun. tipong libo tlga ang gastos para lng sa decorations ng bahay...
saturday. festival proper. umaga palang marami nang mga tao, local man o dayo ang naglilibot na. umagang-umaga palang, wala nang tigil sa pagkuha ng picture ang mga photographers sa mga bahay na oa sa design. pati mga cameramen ng iba't ibang tv stations.. tuluy- tuloy din ang pagshoot.
halos lahat ng mga dayo na dumadaan sa harap ng bahay ng lolo ko doon e ngumunguya. kung hindi kiping sa stick ang kinakain nila, pancit habhab ( eto ung pancit na nakalagay sa dahon ng saging tas kakain mo ng walang kubyertos) hayun..
ang tubig dun sa lucban oa din. oa sa lamig. kala nga nung bunso kong kapatid e galing ung tubig na pinanligo nya sa ref. sa may imelda falls sa may majayjay, ganun din ang tubig. sa sobrang lamig nya, ung mga taong maliligo sa falls e ung mga bitbit nilang inumin, nilalagay na lang nila sa tubig tas lalamig na dun.
ung biyahe pauwi, mas maikli nlng. 2 1/2 hrs nakauwi na kme. isang linggo na ang nakakaraan pero kiping fever pa din dito sa bahay. owel.
hehehe.. thursday na.. magpapaalam na muna ako sa blog world for the weekend. pahiyas na xe sa quezon 15 so uwi muna ako ng lucban. :D 8) (KIPING POR EBRIBADI!!)
eun..
nek wik na ko magkkwento.. magpapahinga muna ang pigang-piga ko ng utak. hehe.. punta din kyo! kita-kits!
kapag may nangyari na.. kapag huli na..saka nare-realize ng tao na hindi talaga niya hawak ang buhay niya o ng kapwa niya? kahit na sabihin pa nating inudyok ng ibang tao ang katapusan ng buhay ng isang nilalang dito sa mundo.. hindi pa rin mapagkakailang ang diyos pa rin ang hahatol sa magiging kapalaran nito.
sa umpisa, hawak mo pa ang lahat. ipapatikim sa iyo kung paano tumatakbo ang buhay. magmamahal ka. magsisimula kang mabuhay. hindi maiiwasan ang mga tampo. pero kasama talaga yun sa kalsadang kailangan mong tahakin e. kadalasan, naaayos ang lahat. kalahati, isa, o kahit dalawang araw pa ang makalipas, tapos na rin ang mga iyon. pero. kapag inabutan ka ng pagkakataon at hindi mo pa tapos tapalan lahat ng lubak at ituwid lahat ng mali, hindi mo na mamamalayan. sasabayan ka na ng tadhana. biglaan na lang kukunin sa iyo ang mahal mo sa buhay. wala na.
babangon kang muli. pero hindi natin alam. baka sa pagbangon mong iyon, iba na. iba na ang paligid. iba na ang buhay. iba ka na.
